My life just isn't about the "isn't"

I know I've said this before, but I'm upset I haven't been the best at keeping this blog current. I've been busy staying up-to-date on inconceivable, but I've realized today that while I love getting my feelings and thoughts out there about our TTC struggle, that the blog is mostly about what my life is NOT at the moment. What about what my life IS about? My life just isn't about the isn't and the do-not-have's.

So! While I'll still keep inconceivable up-to-date, it's time to spend MORE time working on the blog about what my life is! Such as... you know, my life has been about TTC for awhile now, it may take me awhile to get back into the groove on what like if otherwise...

My friend Leah is doing a Dare to DIY portion of her blog that I plan to steal.
Maybe I can do the 30 day blog dare she did beforehand? I tried to create a new blog for my husband and I, but that didn't work. lol. TOO many blogs, and he's just not all that interested. Maybe I'll still share some of his answers during my 30 days, and maybe not. :)

Do you have any other blog ideas?

New Commitment

I want to be a better housewife. How many times have I said this? More than a thousand, I'm sure. However, I've never really come up with a plan to do so in my own way. Sure, I've watched other women do things and be 'better' than I am. And yes, I've wished and prayed to want to be that way too. But let's be honest. Just because I AM a housewife doesn't mean I AM June Cleaver, right? Right. My last two years of being a housewife has taught me that, if anything!

So... what's my plan?

First, what do I believe makes a good housewife? First let's look at Scripture at the Wife of Noble Character....

*work with eager hands, works vigorously

*provides food for her family

*invests wisely, profitable

*rises early, and works until late

*opens her arms to the poor

*nicely dressed

*full of strength and dignity

*can laugh at the days to come, does not worry*speaks with wisdom with faithful instruction

*watches over the affairs of her household

*productive

*trustworthy

*diligent in homemaking

*prepared

*respectful of her husband

*encourager

*kind

"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised." Proverbs 31:30

Whew! I need to get organizing on a good plan!

I Do... Again and Again and Again

Well, I know it has been over a month since I've posted, and that I haven't been a very diligent blogger... but all that is going to change now that I have a smartphone! I love being to blog the instant the urge hits, wherever I am, at whatever time. I swear this phone is amazing, just wish it was easier to make calls on it! Haha.
ANYways! Speaking pf blogging, I created a new blog about the life of "trying" to get pregnant, and hopefully getting there someday soon, or adopting, or fostering...etc. Check it out! www.blogger.com/theinconceivablehousewife
Okay, NOW to the real issue at hand for this blog! This Sunday will be the one year anniversary of the second-best decision I have ever made! ...yes, we have been married for ONE YEAR this Sunday! So crazy to see how time is flown and to see how we have changed, and at the same time, how we haven't changed at all. Overall, marriage has been an amazing blessing... even when there were times I didn't think it was.
So, as we promised and committed to each other, we will be renewing our vows every year- taking turns planning out a fun way to do so. This year I am doing it! :) For the first time, I am thankful my husband doesn't read my blog! I am able to share my thoughts and ideas and what we are doing for this weekend!
First off, it will be at midnight... the first few moments of june 13th... and it will be held in a local cemetary (you will read why later). I still need to decide on a cemetary.
Unfortunately, Walter and I both used the worst word in the world a few times during moments of anger over the past year. My plan is to craft a tiny casket with the word "DIVORCE" in it. I will be vowing to him never to use the word again and burying the casket.
I asked my friend Adam to see if he is willing to record our vows again, and I think he is down for it! We have such amazing people in our lives!
Walter will get to have his mohawk for our wedding, and I will get to wear darker makeup... and it will just be our style. Friends will be invited, but I am betting no one will attend the odd time! Haha. Either way...
The colors will be black and purple.
I would like to do a unity sand art with black, purple, and grey. Need to pick up sand and votive.
Would like someone to be there for a witness again. Would like to sign another "marriage license".
Will defrost our cake again and maybe have a few other finger foods if anyone attends.
Wanted to loose weight and fit into this sexy black dress I bought last year and have never worn. Well, that never happenened... so I need to figure out what walter and I will wear. Maybe my black cocktail dress? ...something in which Walter will be able to wear his black and silver shirt with skull tie.
Praying and praying and praying for this weekend. God has truly blessed me with an amazing husband!
Later on our anniversary I will have to leave for Bigstuf for church. I feel slightly guilty about leaving him, but I know mu wonderful husband understands. It is for good.
I want out marriage and vow renewal to bless God... even if it is a strange style. Not many people may get our style, but we get each other, and God gets us... and that's all I need.
Come What May.

Want Vs Doing

Walter and I have been moving like crazy around here lately. I started spring cleaning, and right now the home seems to be worse than when I started. I know it's on the road to recovery, I just am getting a bit discrouaged. Garage sale next Saturday! So excited to get rid of some of the treasures I do not need or have room for.

The Spring cleaning motivation was triggered by 2 major events that happened this week. 1) We had our home re-appraised today to re-finance! 2) We had our first interview on Wednesday (Cinco de Mayo!) to become foster parents! I'm so excited about this, and yet so nervous. We're growing as we go through the process, but I know I need to get the family of Walter, Belle, Nooma, and I consistant before we offically add someone else- especially if that someone else needs extra love and consistancy! Still, I can't help but dream of being a mom in every passing moment. Most mothers, sadly, have no true idea of the blessing they've been given.

I have so much I WANT to do, when I just need to get up and DO it! Anything is possible; I need to go out and GET what I want! I need to stop dreaming of being a mom when I can foster. I need to stop groaning over being overweight, and just loose the weight! I need to stop complaining the house is a mess, and just FIX it! I need to stop crying about my marriage, when I have the love to change it!

As for all that, I'm getting off the computer now. I'm going to go and get what I want.

10 Photos On Your Walls

As a nanny, I'm invited into many homes. There is a trend I've been noticing that I think is very sad. As couples have more children, their wedding pictures come down and their lives become consumed with their kids. Don't get me wrong, children are one of God's greatest blessings... but so is marriage, and so is the spouse he gave you. As trivial as it seems, I think there are 10 photos everyone should have on their entry level of their home. Not all the photos may apply to you, but it is a collection worth collecting. :)

1) Your wedding photo of ONLY you and your spouse.

Having a photo of your bridal party could lead to a mistake. True, they were your closest buds at a time, but times change.

2) A photo from when first met your spouse.

This is my favorite! Nothing encourages more love than seeing that your spouse choose you during an awkward stage, or to see how much you have changed and how your love has not.

3) A photo with ALL of your children in one shot.

No matter how many children you have (the more, the harder) getting all the kids in one shot, smiling and happy, is a true feat to be cherished forever.

4) A photo from moving-in day.

When the faucet leaks and the walls crack, you'll still be reminded why you love this place.

5) A photo with any pets you have, when they were still small.

As annoying as your dog can get, seeing her as a puppy reminds me of all the life we've lived together.

6) Your engagement photo.

Where your story begins. Usually one of the first things you do during the engagement process, and usually the part with the most joy and excitement (before things gets so rushed).

7) A maternity photo of your first pregnancy.

Contrary to popular belief, this photo does not have to be bare skin and does NOT have to be just shoved in the bedroom. Be tasteful.

8) A photo of the couple, or family, on vacation.

This will encourage you to remember the times where life is less rushed, AND encourage you to save up and go on another vacation again soon!

9) A photo of both sets of parents.

It bothers me when this picture goes up after they've passed. Parents need to see you love and appreciate them now, not just when they've passed on.

10) A photo of you and your first home (or apartment) with your spouse.

To see how God has blessed you, and to remind you where you've come from.

Apologies and Thin Mints

There is no link to this post... There are no pictures. Just apologies. I have been away from blogging since just after the wedding because... well let's be honest here, because being a housewife if hard! I have had no time to do just about anything, and the few moments things calm down and I am content... I wind up housecleaning. Boo. Want a quick way to chase away your smile? Do a load of laundry. Annnd then realize there's about 10 more loads you don't have the energy to do.
Walter and I have almost been married for 7 months now. Does that seem right? Married life has flown by in just a few blinks it seems like. We recently celebrated our first married Christmas together, and the New Year has brought in so many wonderful ideas and also so many things we want to improve on. Hah. Unfortunately I say this to you as I chow down a sleeve of Thin Mints. Yes, the sleeve is almost gone. The 1st of the year I quit smoking. I've slipped twice since then, but I'm not letting it get me down. This time it's for good. Also, about a week ago I went on a slimfast meal plan. I figured I can either be miserable for 6 months kicking the habit, and then miserable for another 6 months loosing the weight I want... or I can just be really miserable for 6 months and do both.
So, I'm guessing you're now confused about the thin mints. Well, even though I choose extreme miserable for 6 months... today I could not. I've been dieting so well for the last week. The slimfast power shakes have been amazing to me. I diet and eat about nothing, and still get that wonderful taste of chocolate! Mmmm. I could never give that up. *sigh* However today has been one odd incident after another that has made me think this box of Thin Mints and I were destined to spend the day together. Walter's car heater is broken, so he asked to take my car to work today. Fine. But I also didn't realize he had drank the last of the milk. Hence, a morning with no chocolate slimfast breakfast. I munched on the appriopiate crackers and fruit that my meal plan had called for... but then another suprise came. The suprise that most get monthly, but I'm thankful to ever have at all... usually. Usually I am thrilled to be visited by that visitor, and I know it sounds crazy but when you've put your body through what I have you just get excited that you're not broken anymore. However, it is sparatic and very rare. When the visit does come, I am destined to be a crab and a couch potato. So, I needed something sweet. Wheat Thins and bananas weren't cutting it!!!
I was such a smart housewife. When Walter and I got serious after the New Year to loose weight I was going to get tough! I tossed out all the food we owned! It wasn't much- we had been delying grocery shopping for awhile. But- all those fatty odds and ends that screamed "eat me" where out of here! Goodbye Halloween candy, and Christmas coco, and New Years Eve pasta and cheesecake! Whew. It was such a relief!
...Until today. My mind was screaming, "CHOCOLATE! YOU NEED IT! DON'T DENY IT, DON'T RESIST IT, YOU NEED IT!" So I scoured all over the kitchen- pausing for only a moment to admire our new fridge that was delivered yesterday- looking for something sweet. I was so angry at myself for throwing away ALL the secret stash! My mind had flipped drastically it seems. Wait!
I saw a corner of a green box peering out over the highest shelf in the kitchen (the one I cannot reach without Walter's help). Was it?! Could it be?! I climbed upon the countertops, steadied myself, and reached up for th taunting box. Yes. You guessed it. THIN MINTS! To be honest I'm not sure if they are from this year or last, but they are 1/4 gone now and it's too late. Hah.
Oh well, it's too late and I'll just have to wake up tomorrow and start my diet again after getting a new jug of milk tonight. :) I'm getting back to serious. One slip up won't kill my plans!
Oh, and yes, you read right. Today- I am on a diet vacation.